Oh, dear readers...I am NOT a happy pregnant lady on this gallbladder-safe diet! No cheeseburgers (which I've been craving). No Chick-Fil-A (which is a daily craving even when I'm NOT pregnant). No fries. No Chipotle. No taste. No flavor. NO NOTHING!
Wanna know what really takes the cake? During my lovely, 3-hour siesta this afternoon (in between puking...think that I'm going to have to fill the super expensive Zofran after all), I had the BEST dream about the most DELICIOUS BBQ EVER! I'm telling ya! We were at this appreciation dinner and whomever was appreciating, must have REALLY appreciated. Maybe it was subconscious saying that baby appreciates what I'm going through. Anyway, there was EVERY kind of BBQ you could want. Different kinds of chicken, pork, beef, ribs, etc., etc., etc. And, in the dream, I remember eating and eating and eating and thinking that it was the best ever. Then, I wake up with a HUMONGOUS craving for BBQ only to remember that it is A) Fatty, B) Greasy, C) Spicy, D) NOT ALLOWED! Could I have had a more mean dream?!? I'll take dreams of having a 2-headed baby WAY before these dreams!
I finally had some protein tonight. I had a very plain, very dull grilled chicken breast with some very plain potatoes and green beans. I felt much better. Here's the problem I'm finding, though. I am NEVER satisfied. I might be comfortably full, so in that way I guess you could say that I'm satisfied. However, my appetite is never satisfied. I always want more. I always want something different or something else.
Tonight, I want chocolate chip cookies. BAD. What I think that I failed to mention before, is that chocolate is a no-no for gallbladders. I WANT SOME CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry. So, if you experience me being a bit grumpy, don't blame me, please. I'm hormonal, I'm still puking multiple times per day, I can't have anything that I'm craving, I'm hungry again as soon as I leave the table, because the stuff on my diet does NOT stick to your ribs.
*Insert sobby violin music here and I am done with the whine fest*
Did I mention, though, that I am thankful. I am thankful for some much in the midst of my grumbling. I have a precious new niece named Kiera that is beautiful and lovely and pure. I won't meet her until she's about 9 months old, because they live in Portland, OR, but how good is our God to bless our family with #9 in the grandkid generation?
I am thankful that, as far as we can tell, we have a healthy, beautiful *cough*babygirl*cough* growing in my secret incubator. That was a joke, by the way. I am still dead-set that this is a girl and I will not believe otherwise until I see boy parts. Anyway, God is doing miraculous wonders and, even though I am uncomfortable and irritable, He chose ME in which to perform his wonders. What an honor!
I am thankful that spring keeps peeking in to let us know that it is truly coming. We had a beautiful day at the Tulsa Zoo yesterday on an impromtu getaway for our little family. Cassie told Mark, "Baby C, Me, You, Conrey, and Mommy are all going!" She mentioned the baby first in her list and I realized that we truly are a little family of 5 now regardless of whether the baby is born yet or not. The family has had to revolve around baby and mommy lately and I believe that it has truly deepened the love for Baby C from all of us. It was a gorgeous spring day in Tulsa and we all loved being in the sunshine!
I am thankful for my husband. He has kept this house running. He has kept it operating. He has kept the children clothed, clean, fed, and happy while I've been unable to do my part. God truly blessed him with extra doses of strength, patience, and endurance over the past few weeks. Did I mention on my last post that I came home from the hospital to dishes done, laundry done, kids rooms picked up, and the house in a general state of order? AMAZED at that man and love him so much!
I am thankful.
Lord, please continue to knit our little baby together. Protect her (or him) and form each little part according to your master plan. Keep us both healthy and safe from dangers known and unknown. Help us to enjoy each day and to not wish them away. Be with my other 2 beautiful blessings and keep them safe in the shadow of your wing. Thank you...