Anxiety

My appointment is this afternoon.  I seriously need some Xanax or something.  Is that the anxiety med?  I think so, but it's been a loooong time since I've done medical transcription.  Anyway, I  need it.  I don't know why I feel so anxious about this appointment.  It's not like I've never been through this before.  Seriously.  Maybe it's the worry that I could have a pregnancy like last time.  Maybe it's the worry that something is not right.  Maybe it's the worry about twins.  Maybe it's the inevitable needles.  Maybe it's the fact that I'm seeing the nurse practioner instead of the dr.  Maybe it's the worry of having a new doctor that doesn't know my history...that didn't deliver my last two babies.  Maybe it's the worry that I'll be on modified bedrest like I was with Cassie or be in and out of the hospital like I was with Conrey.  I'm not sure what the base of the anxiety is, but it is present.  Perhaps the answer is D) All of the above.

Whatever the case may be, I'm ready for the appointment to come and go and for me to have the answers that I'm seeking and be done with it for awhile.  I'm wondering how often I'll have to go back for blood draws.  I'm wondering how often I'll see the dr and/or nurse practioner to keep up with my issues.

So, I will update sometime after my appointment.  I have a Tastefully Simple party (thanks MD!) after my appointment.  So, it might be later tonight before I'm able.  I will try to at least post something on FB about it from my phone.

Thanks for indulging me as I whine...that is if anyone read through it all.  :)